So Far...So Good

Well, I am sitting here at work, not doing anything in particular. Mostly, I have my face shoved into a Charlaine Harris with a powdered donut hanging out of my mouth realizing that as much as life seems to be spiraling out of control, its really not. It could always be worse. I would hope at this point that it won't, be it most definitely could. There are people that are having it worse than my family and myself.

I read PostSecret today and found a secret that kinda hit home. The image is above. Its not the whole secret but just the part that resonates. I hope like hell that I have never said or done anything to make my Dad feel this way or anyone that I have ever known that has secretly fought cancer. Its a long, hard road and affects everyone close to them. Never would I want to cheapen the struggle.

Welcome to Mystery

Imagine a place you can always escape to
An island off the coast of nowhere
A new destination of your own creation
Just waiting till you choose to go there

Blue tree tops and velvet skies
Blue ready to blow your mind
Oooo
This is a place where your mind can escape
All the problems today and go far, far away
This is a time with no history
Welcome to mystery

Imagine a city where everything's pretty
And you sir, you rule the kingdom
You call the shots you can do what you want to
Oh just imagine the freedom

Blue tree tops and velvet skies
Blue ready to blow your mind
Oooo
This is a place where your mind can escape
All the problems today and go far, far away
This is a time with no history
Welcome to mystery

Blue tree tops and velvet skies
Blue ready to blow your mind
Oooo

Imagine a room where the flowers they bloom
Through the cracks in the floor and the ceiling
Just you and the missus and roses scented kisses
My, what a wonderful feeling
Oooo

This is a place where your mind can escape
All the problems today and go far, far away
This is a time with no history
Welcome to mystery

This is a place where your mind can escape
All the problems today and go far, far away
This is a time with no history
Feel no misery
Come and visit me
Welcome to mystery

One and Done

Ok, this is my first blog in years. I'm not even sure what to write about at this point. I know that no one will really be reading but I think that with all of the drama going on, I need a cathartic space. Just to air what is going on so I can get it out of my system.

Some history as to what exactly is going down in my life:
1. Dad was diagnosed with cancer on 11/13/09
2. Cousin in law is getting a messy divorce
3. Sister in law is getting a messy divorce
4. Other sister in law just had another baby. 3 so far. Wants to try again for a girl. She has all boys.
5. Since Christmas, I'm getting asked on a daily basis if I am pregnant yet.

I know that in the grand scheme of things, only one of these issues is exactly that... an issue, which would be #1 on the list. I can't help but feel overwhelmed by everything else. I feel like I need a shrink. I have been a very level person but I am starting to feel like I am sinking. But nevertheless, I will remain optimisic because that, I am sure, is what is keeping me sane.

So if anyone does read this, thank you. Thank you for being a witness to my crazy life. If you need a witness, I am right here.